Two years.
Two years ago today - August 8th, 2013.
Seems like forever ago & seems like just yesterday.
I remember that day so clearly.
I remember each minute, each hour, each word spoken, so clearly.
That day, so unreal now, a bad dream where the edges are blurred.
How happy I was to have Barry & Zach join us for lunch that day.
Our hugs were so warm, loving, full of joy to see them.
My sister, Carolyn, from Brandon was out visiting for a few days.
Grandson, Nick, had a sleep-over at our place, was at the lunch table too.
We had coffee & cinnamon bus around 3.
Great conversation, laughter.
Love.
Several hours later, our lives were changed forever.
How do I put my thoughts & feelings into words?
There are no words to express my sorrow, my anguish, my sorrow that is too deep for tears.
Comfort comes from Above.
Comfort comes from words & hugs expressed by many family & friends.
And then I get ambushed by such deep feelings of grief.
Comfort comes from knowing that I will be reunited with Barry & Zach again.
Our life on earth is but a vapour.
I ask of the Lord - Please tell Barry & Zach that I love them & miss them so much.
I know that they are happy in Heaven & have whole bodies & are free of the toils of this earth.
The above quote I have read over & over again. So true.
There is a time for everything.
A time to remember, a time to reflect.
A time to give thanks for my dear family members that surround me with their love. A time to be thankful for my husband whose life was spared that day.
I have so many questions that may never be answered here on earth.
My heart is so sad.
And tomorrow the journey continues.
I will look for spots of joy because I know they are all around me.
I am thankful for many things, so many things.
Thankful for life.
Thankful for strength for each day to carry on.
Thankful for Jesus & His love for me & that through this tragic event in our family, I can see & feel His caring for us even if I can't understand His plan.
His grace & His strength is enough.